Friday, October 12, 2018

Children of African Descent Unsung in US Integration

"Spirit having a Human Experience. Living in the spirit of Gratitude and Balance. I have worked to rebuild community in the urban African descendant neighborhoods, serving as a teacher, mentor, advocate, activist, and artist. My heart is for Indigo People. 

Mamie and Kenneth Clark; Doll Study

Original Dolls for the Clark Doll Test

I am one of the many thousands of children who were integrated into the public schools, with predominantly Caucasian students. I remember watching TV with my family as a little girl around 7 years old, around 1966-67. The TV Show was called "The 21st Century." Walter Cronkite was a moderator. I was fascinated and so proud to see a husband and wife, of African Descendant on the screen, who were real Doctors practicing psychology! They were the Clarks. The broadcast was about their Doll study with African Descendant children. These children were requested to respond to a series of questions, as they sat in front of 2 dolls. One doll had Dark Melanin complexion while the other doll had a lighter Caucasian Complexion. In retrospect the Clark study showed how devastated and traumatized, the psyche and self- identity of children of African descent had developed at such critical ages from 4 and 5 years old. To think that the Clark Doll study was used in the Supreme Court, to justify the Integration of people of African Descent into a public society of racism, was very disturbing. 

Wikipedia: The Clarks were known for their 1940s experiments using dolls to study children's attitudes about race. The Clarks testified as expert witnesses in Briggs v. Elliott (1952), one of five cases combined into Brown v. Board of Education (1954). The Clarks' work contributed to the ruling of the U.S. Supreme Court in which it determined that de jure racial segregation in public education was unconstitutionalChief Justice Earl Warren wrote in the Brown v. Board of Education opinion, "To separate them from others of similar age and qualifications solely because of their race generates a feeling of inferiority as to their status in the community that may affect their hearts and minds in a way unlikely to ever be undone."[3] 

The issues of Segregation, De-segregation, Integration, voting rights, Jim Crow laws etc., occurred long before I was born. I didn't realize, the moment I watched this television show, that this broadcast was going to be my path into the world as one of the many thousands of children of African Descent, who would be placed, or "integrated" into the many public schools across the country. This experience was traumatic, and depressing for me. Yet, in retrospect, to acknowledge that this subjection was quietly being disseminated upon all other little African American Children across the United States, by the State school systems all over the country, that mis-educated, not only children of African descent, but all children who were in Social Studies and History classes, with a false narrative of white supremacy. 

I was not escorted by a US Marshall or armed guard of any kind to lead or sit beside me as I faced the mental abuse, neglect, contempt, and the severe bigotry that I would be surrounded with from Teachers, Administrators, Parents and Students in my tender Elementary school years, all the way to my high school and College years. My Mother and father just dropped me and my siblings off to their respective grades, leaving us in the hands of these "people," from the tender age of 5 years old. My Father was In the Air Force military. So I was fortunate to be able to travel and live overseas, in Germany. Racism was very severe under the confines of living on a military base and in Base Housing. Yet the German Economy availed a different story. Many Germans were very welcoming and friendly. They showed a fascination with my color, much like an alien from Mars. I don't have a way to compare my experiences, in relationship to students of African descent in the United States.  I remember being alone most of the day, just following the orders of apathetic neutral teachers, who displayed contempt, never a smile or courtesy. I now wonder how much more they were paid to be "tolerant." And what did this say about the Teachers of African Descent, in their competency, love and compassion to teach African American Children and all children? 

I remember washing my hair every day. I had to pull the spitballs and trash out of my Afro, after riding the bus from home to school and back again. I remember being isolated and alone, overlooked, ignored, not being called on when I raised my hand to participate in class, walking at the end of the line, screamed at, if I stepped out of line or stood out in any way. During recess, I was ordered to stand against the fence and not permitted to play on the playground equipment with the other students. I remember being forced to sit in the back of the class, and eating completely alone at a table to myself in the lunch room.  I endured this cruel treatment day after day for, a decade of my life. My siblings were my only friends.

I remember Ruskin High School. I remember being the only family of African Descent in the neighborhood and the only student of African descent in my assigned classrooms. I did not go to the prom. Although I had excelled academically in school and was placed in AP classes, and taking college courses while in high school, the only memorable extra activity that I achieved, was working with a teacher in Art Club who assisted me, to set up an artist display at a local community event, that was quite successful. 

I am currently a minister, and activist, promoting the Urban growing of local foods, I also Promote Green Sustainable recycling initiatives. I studied as a Graphic Artist. I am Writer and a Native American Kemetic Spiritual Minister. I work with home blessings and edible landscaping for elders or anyone who would like to learn about sustainable agriculture in an urban environment. My motto is " In order to free yourselves- You must feed yourselves!" I have learned that our food system has changed decades ago. The GMOs (Genetically modified Organisms), pesticides, and plastiburgs are destroying our children and our planet. 

I choose to pursue my philosophy and way of life to Nurture my family and community. I continue to teach and work with children, teens and young Adults, Elders, and families with Amen Ankh Akademy- African Centered Homeschool and Communiversity- to empower Indigo families, to know, love and respect themselves; and to build a sustainable economy. eYe am a Mother, Kandaki Ma, teacher of history, philosophy, and spirituality. My family Ancestors were free Tutsi people, living in the Americas, known as Natchez, before the Colombo invader infection and colonist, ever arrived. eYe dedicate myself to consciously making the spiritual journey of life, to move to my higher self. eYe am committed to assisting in the movement of as many souls forward on their own journeys as possible. Life is love, of All Creation, knowledge of self, purposeful occupation, and friendship. My most valuable possession is my presence. My truths empower me, and I share them to empower others.
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