I remember watching TV with my family as a little girl around 7 years old, around 1966-67. The TV Show was called "The 21st Century." Walter Cronkite was a moderator. I was fascinated and so proud to see a husband and wife, of African Descendant on the screen, who were real Doctors practicing psychology! They were the Clarks. The broadcast was about their Doll study with African Descendant children. These children were requested to respond to a series of questions, as they sat in front of 2 dolls. One doll had Dark Melanin complexion while the other doll had a lighter Caucasian Complexion. In retrospect the Clark study showed how devastated and traumatized, the psyche and self- identity of children of African descent had developed at such critical ages from 4 and 5 years old.
The Elephant in the room is the fact that the US-(United States) ESTABLISHED JIM CROW LAW SEGREGATION AGAINST PEOPLE OF AFRICAN DESCENT FOR MORE THAN 90 YEARS!
To think that the Clark Doll study was used in the Supreme Court, to justify the Integration of people of African Descent into a public society of racism, was very disturbing. To think that Children of African Decent were thought to be more traumatized by segregation, only to be even more traumatized by the bitter bigotry and raw hatefulness of Caucasian children, parents, and teachers; who were not able to escape the integration of the public sector through "white flight" like the elites, into religious and Economic planned communities, designed after the likes of J.C.Nichols.
Wikipedia: The Clarks were known for their 1940s experiments using dolls to study children's attitudes about race. The Clarks testified as expert witnesses in Briggs v. Elliott (1952), one of five cases combined into Brown v. Board of Education (1954). The Clarks' work contributed to the ruling of the U.S. Supreme Court in which it determined that de jure racial segregation in public education was unconstitutional. Chief Justice Earl Warren wrote in the Brown v. Board of Education opinion, "To separate them from others of similar age and qualifications solely because of their race generates a feeling of inferiority as to their status in the community that may affect their hearts and minds in a way unlikely to ever be undone."
Mamie and Kenneth Clark; Doll Study
Original Dolls for the Clark Doll Test
The issues of Segregation, De-segregation, Integration, voting rights, Jim Crow laws etc., occurred long before I was born. I didn't realize, the moment I watched this television show, of the Clark Doll Study, that this broadcast was going to become my path into the world as one of the many thousands of children of African Descent, who would be placed, or "integrated" into the many public schools across the country. This experience was traumatic, and depressing for me. Yet, in retrospect, to acknowledge that this subjection was quietly being disseminated upon all other little African American Children across the United States, by the State school systems all over the country, that mis-educated, not only children of African descent but all children who were in Social Studies and History classes, with a false narrative of white supremacy.
I was not escorted by a US Marshall or armed guard of any kind to lead or sit beside me as I faced the mental abuse, neglect, contempt, and the severe bigotry that I would be surrounded with from Teachers, Administrators, Parents and Students in my tender Elementary school years, all the way to my high school and College years. My Mother and father just dropped me and my siblings off to their respective grades, leaving us in the hands of these "people," from the tender age of 5 years old.
I remember washing my hair every day. I had to pull the spitballs and trash out of my Afro, after riding the bus from home to school and back again. I remember being isolated and alone, overlooked, ignored, not being called on when I raised my hand to participate in class, walking at the end of the line, screamed at, if I stepped out of line or stood out in any way. During recess, I was ordered to stand against the fence and not permitted to play on the playground equipment with the other students. I remember being forced to sit in the back of the class, and eating completely alone at a table to myself in the lunch room. I endured this insensitive and often cruel treatment, day after day for, over a decade of my life. My siblings were my only friends.
My Father was In the Air Force military. So I was fortunate to be able to travel and live overseas, in Germany. Racism was very severe under the confines of living on a military base with US Bigotry. Yet the German Economy availed a different story. Many Germans were very welcoming and friendly. They showed a fascination with my color, much like an alien from Mars. Yet some revealed their old embedded hate as neo-Nazis. Many Germans were even approached and incited by racist Caucasian US Military, to show prejudice toward people of African descent.
I don't have a way to compare my experiences, in relationship to students of African descent in the United States. All that I know is that I was expected to be quiet, still and compliant. I remember being alone most of the day, just following the orders of apathetic neutral teachers, who displayed contempt, never a smile or courtesy. I now wonder how much more they were paid to be "tolerant." And what did this whole Desegregation experience say about the Teachers of African Descent, in their competency, love, and compassion to teach African American Children, and all children?
As my Father returned to the United States, Our family settled in Kansas City, Missouri, living in what was then a typical "WASP" (White Anglo-Saxon Protestant) community. I never realized until I was near graduation, that every morning, for years, My Father would get up early in the morning, before we would leave for school, and completely wash down the front porch, and all of the exits of our house, because someone would throw garbage and feces against the sides of our house entrances- EVERY DAY!
I attended and graduated from Ruskin High School, which was a predominantly WASP school. I remember being the only family of African Descent in the neighborhood and the only student of African descent in my assigned classrooms. No. I did not go to the prom. I was not encouraged or permitted to attend the many extracurricular activities. Although I had excelled academically in school and was placed in AP classes, and taking college courses while in high school, the only memorable extra activity that I was finally invited to be a part of and achieve in, was working with a young teacher in Art Club. She assisted me, to set up an artist display at a local community event, that was quite successful. There were many young teachers who were open and receptive, yet the old guard of Teachers was staunchly bigoted. I do not recall any teachers of African Descent, on staff. Although I was not expected to attend college, according to the School counselor, my young Art teacher paved the way for me to receive a full ride scholarship to Washington University. Yet, my parents refused to support me and turned down the scholarship.
In retrospect, I think of my experiences much like what was imposed upon any child, who was not a part of this US system. For instance, the Indoctrination Boarding Schools that were imposed upon the Native Americans, who were forced as children to conform and acculturate to the ways of Western Europeans, and ultimately strip them of their natural, sustainable cultural ways, language, family ties, and heritages, names, foods, Lands, and resources, that tied them into a nation... My African/Black American Cultural heritage, access to land and resources, our Leaders, music, History, Heritage, etc., were not acceptable in these integration/assimilation schools. We were expected to function independently, with the WASP middle-class value system, and not have any ties to our own families and neighborhoods for our own economics.
As a Young Adult, I would later Join a middle-class value, Black Church, get married, give birth to two wonderful children, and graduate from 2 colleges, with a masters degree in Special Education. I was not satisfied with assimilating into the US system. I know that as an Indigo person, I would always be subordinate to any access to this society. Yet, outside of my indoctrination, I was inspired by my Father, who was found listening to Malcolm X speeches. Malcolm X always spoke of separation from the US and doing for self, as a Nation of Black people. I later took on the Black Panther model of establishing a Do-For-Self, African Centered lifestyle, while living in my own community of African Americans, that I worked in, as an Urban School teacher. I Brought my children into an African Conscious connection, with the National Black United Front, and learned to dance in an African Dance group. I became an avid reader of African Centered Authors, later reading the Medu Neter by Ra U Nefer Amen. I learned to speak the KMT language, to graft an Afrikan Centered Culture. I later established a community center called the Amen Par Ankh, with my Spiritual partner and mate, Sasteh Meter. https://amen.parankh.blogspot.com
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